Skip to content

Thank God for the SINNER

***Help Old School TODAY to continue our critical work promoting natural health, success, and freedom. Please DONATE NOW! Thank you!***

I have asked God many times to remove the anger inside me. And He is answering my prayer–yet the process seems so SLOW!

For some reason, this appears to be the way He wants it.

I have wanted clarity about all things, for a long time.

I want to be sure–if possible–that the actions I engage in are correct, and not colored by my own desires, fears, or grudges.

I can see that much good has occurred through some of my “crusades”–despite my impure heart.

And I have always sought to be in the fight, and to see the fight through to the end.

But seeing when to fight–and sometimes when NOT to fight… ah, that is wisdom!

I have not always had wisdom, and still see it is not perfect in me.

I have not always been able to separate the righteousness of a cause from my personal battles.

There is one fight I have been in that I have wrestled with. Is telling my story enough?

Should I continue on, promoting others who have taken up the battle?

Shall I continue to seek justice on the outside while injustice still exists in my spirit?

Talking with the family

My family and I had a very good talk yesterday.

We had some issues that needed to be brought to light. In the end, what became clear was that I still have issues–I have not been made perfect in love yet, and it (of course) affects my family in a negative way.

We discussed some new posts I was working on, which further expand upon a crusade I have been involved in. But the questions at hand boiled down to just two:

1: What is the best thing for my soul?

2: What is the best thing for my family? (which of course is related to question 1)

The clarity of those questions which came to me, led to an obvious answer: Because too much blame resides in me still, I cannot seem to continue in this fight as I have been, without diving back in to negative thoughts and emotions.

In other words, blame is unhealthy (duh!), and failing to take full responsibility for my own actions is causing a continuation of my anger as the wound is continually re-opened.

Don’t get me wrong–injustice clearly has been done, and I understand full well that others may need to continue to fight to right wrongs. And they are being unjustly treated to this day.

There is a need for them to continue to fight. And for others who have not yet come forward to do so, if they are so led.

But at the moment–when anger still resides in my heart–I must do what is best for my soul, and for my family, that that is keeping my eyes on ME.

The Sinner is like cancer

After having a very honest and healing conversation about these issues with my family, I had an interesting realization: the sinner (the person who has tempted us to fall into hatred) is like cancer, meaning this:

Have you ever heard of someone who got cancer, but then said it was the best thing that ever happened to them?

Going through that crisis woke them up to something about themselves that they had not realized.

Similarly, the “sinner” in my life and their actions toward me brought my sin to the surface. And though I fell to that sin, and its presence in my life caused great pain to me and especially to my family, in the end, it has provided a new sense of freedom, and a renewed closeness and growing love with them.

I had never been particularly close to my family growing up for a variety of reasons, so I was never a very good “family” person once I started my own.

I hurt my wife in some deep ways without even fully realizing it. I was a very often absent father, as I worked long hours and commuted far.

I’m just realizing some of this now. Sin in its various forms had blinded me to so much.

So yes, instead of hating the sinner, something new has opened up to me: a certain sense of gratefulness that God allowed the sinner to work in my life like a cancer to wake me up to the sin that was ALREADY in me and seeking full expression.

Now, looking back, I can see the slow motion car wreck that the sin inside of me caused. Had it not been for the “sinner” in my life, it would not have come so clearly to the surface.

And the sin would have been working quietly in the background, slowly destroying my life.

Now I have another chance at a full life!

The future

I do not know what the future will bring, but I believe that God will continue to guide me and my family toward freedom, as long as we remain close to Him.

I cannot say what actions I will or will not take moving forward, but you can be sure that my eyes will be on myself, first and foremost. From that, my family will naturally be protected.

As for “the sinner”: Yes, I still want to see justice done, but I also know that I am not the author of that justice. I still support the “soldiers” in the field carrying on the work, and pray for their success.

And ultimately I know that there is One to whom we ALL must answer to for our sins, and that His justice will be served in the end.

We will ALL be judged–“the sinner” among us, and the sinner within us.

Patrick Rooney is the Founder of He communicates clearly and fearlessly during perilous times about natural health, success, and freedom. To reach Patrick, email him at [email protected].

To Support the critical work of Old School, go HERE.  

6 thoughts on “Thank God for the SINNER”

  1. Patrick, I wish every woman had a husband like yourself. Inward looking, wanting to do the right thing, able to admit his faults. So refreshing to see in a world that is filling up with narcissists! Someone who cares about how he treats others! So rare! Even amongst Roys congregation! Humility is so attractive! ‘Keep up the good work’ as Roy would say 🙂

  2. I had a weird dream last night about former tenants of mine, whom were agressively obnoxious and demanding. Caused me many sleepless nights and a whole bucket load of stress. This was 7 years ago. Upon analyzing the dream, I realize I still harbor some negative feelings about them. Funny how our dreams can cue us into things we are not consciously aware of. So now I’m not sure how to deal with it. Or if I should at all. God removed some negative feelings I had about my daughter in law, I think I prayed or commented to him, that I did not want to hate, and like magic, one day, those feelings were gone. In this other case there was something I should have spoken up to them about, which I didnt. They live now in my subdivision and I do see them upon occasion. So I guess I just have the Lord direct me, another situation too, which I didnt speak up about. Those things fester unless resolved. One way or the other.

    1. Thank you, Rose. Yes, things do surface sometimes in dreams. Yes. Things can certainly fester. I have found that the biggest festering place is in my MIND. Judging and replaying situations. This is true sometimes whether I speak up or not. God is good and will show you the way.

  3. I do see that we all need to remain always focused on our own alter conscience/intellect, as it talks to us in words in our minds…expressed often as us talking to ourselves or someone not present. Since you were caught up in the web of the aggressor, largely from your own weakness and going along with it, it makes perfect sense for you to really write and speak about how sin in devious ways can hold us hostage for a time. For sure all will receive justice in the end, and I pray that I will just live more and more in the presence so I can make it to paradise for eternity.
    You have done your part to help protect others, and now it is Martin’s turn as he sees it right. I am helping some, but not in the same way I did years prior, thank God. I learned a good lesson.
    It’s just the past and the devil now trying to get you to not release your memories, but God already forgives us all, and vengeance is all His, so don’t worry. Just dismiss, over and over and they will leave you eventually. It will be like it happened in another life.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *